"Stay calm dear, you are perfect, it’s the world around you that is impure, wicked and dangerous.", these are words or rather lies that I keep telling myself every night, reassuring myself? , I don’t know, the perplexity is strong, and the twinge of pain in my chest is much stronger, sharper and real. The past three months have been absolutely ordeal, everything has changed for some ambiguous and vague reasons. I dismay and dread every upcoming day knowing what will happen, the feeling of the world melting around me, clutching and gasping for the precious, sacred air around me and not getting any, the heavy mountain upon my chest, the burden stabbing me viciously and thoroughly. I can’t breath, I plead for calamity, tranquility and some peace of mind; but I am awarded with more suffering instead. They call it anxiety, I call it the state of a slowly, tormenting affliction. Such a perturbing confinement indeed, imprisoned in my own mind, conquered by my own unknown hidden thoughts. Am I going to survive this predicament ? , they used to tell me when I was a child that after the darkest hour comes the dawn, the radiant, angelic rays of sunlight that will make me warm, that will force me to put all my adversity aside and gaze at its beauty in awe. Will this day ever come? and if it didn’t, will I be able to make it myself, to stand for my life, to climb out of that abyss of apathy, indifference and plain pain? or am I just going to succumb to this? …too much questions, and little are the answers. How baffling is it to exist?, and how it is exquisitely wondrous to live and seize everyday. Until then, until all these wonders are answered, until that harmony descends upon me, stay calm dear…you’re perfect.
I took pictures all my life. But tumblr with its the great photographers and Karolina Plachetko changed my perspective of photography. I learned about the finer nuances of the art and tried to find my own style.
Today I mostly take pictures in black and white, though if the motive is right, color is a welcome variation. Categories I shoot in also vary from my moods. I like to go into the city and take pictures of people, places and whatever seems worth to be recorded. The same goes for nature, especially when people cross my path. That’s why you will find a variety of motives in my blog.
Maggie Nelson, Bluets
Deb Caletti, Stay